I think I could be in a little trouble right now. I am still hung up on Lee being so controlling. He has no idea why I'm pulling back. In fact, I think he's getting tired of it. But what does he expect? I do not do well with someone trying to control where I go, what I do, when I do it...
I am my own person. I know he wants to share my life. I'm okay with that. But whenever I share with him about someone in my life, he acts like it's unfair to him. I don't get it. I have friends. Yes, I have more male friends than female. I have for years. I find many women far too catty and fake for me. I want to talk to someone, I want to talk to a real person. Not someone who will feed the rumor mill.
I am sick of feeling like I have to explain where I met every person I talk to in town. Face it. I know some people. Get over it.
And I'm sick of him making catty remarks about some of my friends. Yes, I have bikers in my group of friends. It happens when you ride a motorcycle. Get over yourself. Just because people ride a motorcycle, it doesn't make them a bad person.
I am gearing up to get my motorcycle fixed asap. That way I can start riding again. Its more about freedom than anything else. Okay, I'll admit it. I want to see how Lee reacts to it too. If he gets mad, I'm gone. He needs to understand and accept that I am my own person. I have my own interests. And I'm not going to give them all up because he's in my life.
I am not one who deals well with someone trying to control my every move.