Life got in the way. I was busy. I actually was really really hurt by someone I thought cared about me fairly recently. Hurt badly. It sent me into a real funk for most of September. I mean a bad one. My body shut down. I couldn't eat, or sleep. So running was out of the question.
But that's changed now. I had something to learn. I learned that not everyone is a good person deep down. Even if they say they care about you, sometimes they'll really hurt you to save face. I'm not like that. I don't ever want to be like that. I have self respect. And I don't trump myself up by cutting others down.
It has taken me a long time to realize how lucky I am to have had this happen to me the way it did. But I do now.
And I've spend the last two days feeling like I'm floating on air. I am feeling so free. Happy. Just overjoyed to be alive these days. It's exciting.
I think part of this being so overjoyed and hyper has to do with the trip coming up. I am traveling with my kids to San Francisco soon to run the Nike Womens Marathon. Yep. I'm running the full distance. Or going to try my best anyway.
I can't wait.
This Saturday night, a group of us are going to a Chillowack Concert. I am looking forward to that too.
Tammy is really suffering from a deep depression right now. Oh, I guess I should say who she is - she's new in my life.
I met someone - Terry. We were dating for a bit. He really gained my trust fast. But then I discovered who he really was. And his addictions. And how hateful a person he could be because of them. Well, Tammy was a friend of his. She's now a great friend of mine. All of Terry's friends were mad at him about what happened with me, but that's another story I don't even want to get into.
But Tammy and I are great friends right now. And she's struggling with depression. I think I'm going to print off my mindfulness blogs for her to read. And learn from. Hopefully they will help her.
Anyhow, in general, I'm happy right now. I love this feeling. I hope it lasts a long LONG time.