I am feeling completely stupid and used right now. I guess the writing was on the wall the entire time. I just didn't want to see it.
I just wish I could blame it 100% on someone else. I prefer to have someone other than myself to blame. But I'd have to admit it is at least 50% my fault. I just didn't want to open my eyes and see...
And now I'm paying the price.
I need to work on repairing and keeping my self confidance. Believing I am worth it. I am worth more than this. Believing I'm not a complete idiot, or trash.
Sad part is, it's going to actually be hard to do that. I guess my best bet to do that right now is to grab to the little bit of me that feels I was misled. I may have walked down the rose garden path, but it had to be put there for me to walk that way. I was honest from the beginning. I can't necessarily say that for everyone involved.
I guess it all comes down to being too trusting again. I trusted that path, and willingly went there.
What a fool